So I am going to be seriously real here. Parenting is effing hard. There are days I feel like I have it all together and there are days that I want to lose my shit. Let’s just say this week has been the latter.
I truly love my kids but there are days when I just don’t like them. I know that probably sounds awful but it’s true. Let me tell you what kind of moments cause me to not like them.
Let’s start with school. I have two boys, they are my loves and my life but when they are in school I am seriously stressed out. Why? Let’s me start out by saying that I have one kid that is super smart but is on the lazy side. I seriously do not understand why either because both my hubby and I hustle. We are always doing something. Heck, I work full time, I have a business and I have this blog. I am always doing something. My hubby is the same way, he does a lot of side work outside of his full-time gig. So it really frustrates me when my son doesn’t have any passion for anything. I look back on my childhood and wonder if I was the same way. I do remember working really hard to be a good student. I wasn’t smart like he is. Yeah, I could squeak by and often I think my attitude was “fake it til you make it” but this kid is super smart. He has more intelligence in his little pinky than I had at his age. The issue is that he just doesn’t have any drive. He doesn’t like sports either so when he moves he moves very slow.
I know I am probably sounding like a horrible mother right now but before you get all judgy on me I want you to know that I am super proud of my son. I love him with all my heart. I am so proud of who he is as a person because he is kind, sweet, he will help anyone whenever he can and he is so funny. He has taught himself to play the electric guitar and to me that is amazing. He also speaks Spanish- fluently! Something I cannot do. I seriously wish I had learned. I know I could have but I didn’t, my parents didn’t force it on us and I should have made the effort. He speaks, reads, and writes in Spanish. How amazing is that?
What is even more amazing is that I am not the only one struggling with this stuff. I hear daily that students do not turn in work. What I don’t get is why? It’s like going to work and working all day and then not expect to get paid. I have several friends who tell me they deal with this quite often and the school counselor said and I quote “the class of 2020 is just like this and I can’t figure out why”. I am appalled that this generation has this attitude about their work. It’s going to be harder for them as they get older.
OK so then I have the little one; he seriously tries really hard but unfortunately, after lots of discussions with the wonderful staff at his school we are finding that little guy has some issues and needs some serious help. I have been told that kids learn in different ways and I get it now but again it’s so frustrating. I guess what is so surprising is the fact that he is so great at sports but reading is just so hard.
I want to share again, how much I love my kids but I am seriously at a loss lately trying to figure out what to do to get them to where they need to be. I know there is no instruction manual for kids and each one is different but gosh darn it, it is seriously so hard some days.
Lord, please help us to get through these difficult years and give my kids knowledge and confidence to get through these challenges.